On my plane ride out to Nantucket I started to read a book titled SPIRITED by Rebecca Rosen, and I quickly finished it just a few days into my stay. At this point it my life it was a must read, and although I try to take many things with a grain of salt … this book offered me many options for meditation and healing for my time here on the island.
http://www.amazon.com/Spirited-Connect-Guides-All-Around/dp/B003ZK50TI/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1355688385&sr=8-1&keywords=spirited+by+rebecca+rosen (my only caution with suggesting this book is to take it for what you want it to be. As a grieving mother there are a few parts which you must skip … like that common phrase that all things happen for a reason that makes us all wanted to kick some ass. )
Overall it offered me a particular set of skills to tap into my inner-self, which is exactly what I was hopeful to do with my time here. Since finishing the book, just after Steven left the island :(, I have started each of my mornings by setting an intention. WOW, what has happened has truly been even beyond my imagination. These are the stories of what has manifested from intentions in just a few weeks time;
It started with dining alone. GULP, double gulp. I have mostly spent my meals here to myself in the cottage, which I love … but I also felt the erg to explore this option of dinning alone since I felt so safe in this place. Meal ONE out alone … coffee shop breakfast, and I chose to talk to no one (other than politeness to the waitress). Okay, that was good, right? It is all part of the journey and if I don’t want to share with any I don’t have to, awwwhhhh the beautiful of Nantucket. Meal two … I need steak! After many meals in and a lot of soup … I realized I needed a meal meal and ventured out for steak! I went to a beautiful little place that was not to “bar-like” as that feels just oh so wrong without my hubby. I set an intention before I left to let myself be open to receive what I am supposed to receive. As I sat … alone, I found myself amongst very friendly faces. It didn’t take long and a few of those friendly faces began to chat with me. After less than an hour of friendly chit chat and story swapping an amazing couple visiting the island offered that I join them on a beach jeep ride the very next morning. Being open to receive I said … “I’m in!” Kathy , Mike and I heading out to drive along the beach to Great Point Light house the very next morning. It was such a beautiful day … we were even able to take the top off the jeep and ran into a friendly bunch of seals. This furthest point on the island was breathtakingly beautiful and somewhere I never would have been able to venture to alone. Thank you Mike and Cathy for sharing your morning with me and showing me this beautiful part of the island.
Meal three out alone. Looking for a deal. I thought this third “meal out” could actually be dinner alone in at cottage first and then stretching my legs to grab a glass of wine for half off. Gotta love that deal! Intention for this adventure was more of a universal question. Am I supposed to keep writing children’s books with Wylder’s messages? I have so many ideas, but is this my path? When I arrive the place was so quiet. So I tilted my head up to “watch football’. After a few minutes the bartended said football fan huh? I couldn’t lie … nope, just don’t know where else to look when dining without my hubby. We both laughed and I think he appreciated my honesty. I asked him why the place was so quiet and he smirked … and said just give it about 15 min . He wasn’t kidding … the place was packed before I knew it. Turns out it was half off appetizers too (drawing quite a crowd) … so I decide to order one of those as well. Just as I was finishing up a couple sat down next to me (I had to do a double take because at first I thought it was Ralph Lauren and his beautiful bride, tee hee). I offered to scootch to give them a bit more room and they said they were good. Just a few minutes later I put on my jacket, wrapped my scarf around my neck and was about to take off when they struck up a conversation. I sat with my coat on and chatted with this amazing couple for over an hour and a half. Boy oh boy was I distended to meet them (thank you Wylder James). They were such loving and kind people so I share our Warrior with them. Told them all he has done, foundation plans, about his book and about Wylder the Whale. Then I share with them I was thinking about writing a book about Wylder the Whale taking an adventure to Nantucket, but I just wasn’t sure. What happened next was pure magic. Turns out they own Nantucket Clothing Company right in the center of town. They said they would love to support that book, Wylder Nation and sell Wylder the Whale shirts in their shop. My emotions started bubbling from the inside out. People are amazing. No matter my heartache … I continue to be amazed by the people being put into our lives and the goodness in people. I knew this was Wylder answering my questions and putting me in the right place at the right time. Just two days later I met this amazing couple at their shop in town where they shared with me that they not only want to create this Wylder the whale T-shirt … but they want to have it has their featured product for the entire summer and 100% of the proceeds will go to Wylder Nation!!! WOW WOW WOW. Tears and over joy-ed to have Wylder shared with many more people, raising awareness, and carrying his legacy. And if that wasn’t enough … they said if I decide to write this book they would be honored to have a book signing at their shop next summer. What, that means we would get to come back too?!?! Intentions answered to the highest degree … better get writing.
Forth meal out was actually not alone. Allowing myself to be open to receive what I am supposed to …lead to meal four being amonst new friends. Jill and Faron Flinton. Jill and Faron Flinton lost their son Dan just over one year ago to Niemann Pick type C. We are such a small family of people we all try lean on one another for support, but we often never meet. I have actually never met face to face another family with a child that persevered against niemann pick disease (any type) … until yesterday! That is right. After following our blog the Flinton’s new that I was here on the island and traveled 4 hours by car and one hour by boat so I could officially wrapped my arms around other parents. Magical … simply Magical. We had a lunch out on main street and talked about our most beautiful and amazing children. We walked to the light house and sipped warm beverages. To be able to meet Jill and Faron was amazing for me. My heart swelled up and the fact that they traveled all this way to show their love and support was just plain overwhelming. As we hugged goodbye so they could take the 4:30 ferry home I knew I would have a special place in my heart for the Flinton’s forever.
I believe what is helping me become a bit more centered and begin receiving all this goodness are the morning walks with new friends, talking time for myself, mediation and letting my broken heart lead the way. Having my first breaths in the morning be the fresh air, my first sights be this beautiful island, and my first sounds be the sounds of the ocean that makes all things feel possible. Realizing this is true love, that Wylder is true love and although his literal absence is unbearable, my trust in him and my love for him is forever. I know exactly who is making sure all of these things are happing … and I am trying to listen Wylder James. As I learn to live with a broken heart, search for purpose … I will always know YOU are and always will be my biggest accomplishment. Your daddy and I will strive to make a difference in many ways because of YOU. Our lives here will never be completly whole again, but we will somehow manefest a happy life by coninuing to listen to you. We love you and will miss you forever Wylder. xoxo
Manifesting A Happy Life
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