I am in full fledge nesting mode. Baby Bruiser (I promise that will not be his real name, tee hee) is coming soon. I am sneaking up on 34 weeks along, and his scheduled arrival date is World Rare Disease Day … February 28th!! Steven is thinking he will come a tad early, but I feel like he is going to come on that very special day.
Everything is getting washed and as ready as possibly for our newest family member. I love nesting. Cleaning out the grudge and folding teeny tiny baby clothes is my forte. I am really taking my time and trying not to feel anxious, just enjoying this phase and these feelings this time around.
I remember nesting JUST like this with Wylder, washing his clothes and putting them in little baggies, setting up the swing and feeling completely unprepared for what our first baby would need. With Bruiser, I feel much more relaxed. I feel grateful for the fact we really do not need more “stuff” and that although he has a few new goodies of his own, he will share much with his big brother. I feel ready to accept the long list of first that Bruiser will show us, which we are unprepared for … and I cannot wait to see how his personality shines.
I really continue to feel amazing in this last trimester. I love to be pregnant. It is such a gift. I do feel more sluggish and tired with Bruiser than I did with Wylder, and I am not sure if that is because I was 28 when I had Wylder and I am rounding the corner on 33 for Bruiser. Or maybe it is simply because it is a different Littles, but I am doing my best to keep my energy up. I try to walk at least a few days a week and I continue to work (although it really is only “part time”). I have had quite a few contractions (aka. Braxton Hix) since around 25 weeks. My doc says it is simply because my body is preparing for what it already know how to do, not a sign that he is coming early. At my last appointment it was clear that Bruiser had dropped. I am not exaggerating when I say my entire stomach is done about an inch (tee hee). Although I look a ting goofy, he looks perfect at all his checkups and we just cannot wait to meet him.
I plan to deliver at Scottsdale Shea with the same doctor that delivered Wylder. Based on the emotions that have come with this pregnancy, I anticipate to feel a slew of emotions on the day Bruiser arrives. My labor and delivery was very smooth with Wylder (I mostly labored at home), and he arrived only one day before his actual due date. I am hopeful for a similar experience with this one, but will try to embrace whatever circumstances we are given.
To see Bruiser’s sweet face is something I only dream of now. Will he look like his brother, is a thought that enters my head daily. I cannot wait too hear is sweet breath, feel his soft skin and give him his baths that make him smell like Heaven on Earth, just like his brother. We will pick and share his name after we meet him, and make our final decision on what fits him best.
After talking with some of my girlfriends, I am learning it is not an uncommon thought to wonder if you will be as good of a mother the second time around, and will your heart have so much more love? Then I came across this on facebook and it sums up what I am doing to overcome these thoughts …
“Don’t worry about anything; instead pray about everything; Tell God your needs and don’t forget to thank him for his answers. If you do this you will experience Gods peace.”
We love and miss you Wylder. We cannot wait to meet your little brother, please continue to keep him safe. See you in our dreams. xoxo
Posted by January 15, 2014 12 Commentson